Friend?

you know the feeling when you are always with the people who you want to be with?
you always stay beside him.
you always there when he needs someone.
you always give what he want.
you always help him.
you always do anything for him.
but, you still haven't make him yours.
you can. but you afraid.
afraid if you confess to him, he would go.
you are afraid if you and him not like before.
you afraid if he won't talk or meet with you again.
that's why you still haven't told him what are you feel.
but you are always afraid.
afraid if he suddenly find another woman out there and leave you.
and what can you do?
you can't do anything.
because, who are you?
nothing.
only his friend.
yes.
friend.
best friend. that's it.
you are the one who too much hoping.
he calls you at night until more than 2-3hours.
you think because he wants to talk to you. you think because he misses you?
maybe he thinks that he only needs someone to talk with?
he always asks for your help.
you think because he wants to find something that can make you and him meet and contact.
maybe he thinks that you are so kind, that's why he always ask your help.
he comes to your house at night, only to take something but you and him talks so much until you feel sleepy.
you think he wants to meet you and wants to see your face?
maybe he thinks because talk to you is the best thing?
he always tell you a secret to you.
you thinks because he trust you so much?
maybe he thinks so, but he trusts you because you are his best friend.
stop hoping so much.
maybe all of your friends look at you and him look like a real couple.
you are happy right?
because yourself know that you're look like more than friend.
but, best friend can do that too. right?
don't hoping so much.
if he suddenly tell you that he falling in love with someone.
do you think that's would be you?
maybe, but if it's not?
what would you do?
you will go away and mad at him?
he will think that you're weird.
he will think that you are act too much.
and he maybe wouldn't care again.
and leave you.
then came to her 'new woman'.
think again.
you are smiling but you are crying too.
you said that you are fine, but yourself know that you're not.

(sorry for my bad english) =)
13 Maret 2014

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